Ah, Netfrix. I mean, Netflix. Asian accent. When Conan, not the barbarian, O'Brien, was ousted by Jay Leno's return to the Tonight Show, he had a clause in his contract that he couldn't go back on television for six months. So he rebelled and went on tour and made a movie about it called Conan O'Brien Can't Stop.
There were two interesting things that I learned from that movie. As he was finishing up the development of his tour, he had run into a phase of doubt. Severe doubt. This is a guy who has an incredible track record of writing good, funny stuff. He's written for shows like the Simpsons and Saturday Night Live. His run on the Late Night with Conan O'Brien from 1993-2009, The Tonight Show from 2009-2010 is nothing to sneeze at either. So a guy like him, who has a huge fan base, shouldn't have doubts, right?
And according to Wikipedia, he settled for about 45 million dollars to leave. Doubts?
I was very surprised.
Who among us hasn't had doubts in any part of our lives? I know when I sit to write, doubt is something I don't think about. Neither is writing a best seller. Writing the best story that I can is my focus, putting forward my most bestest effort ever. Afterwards, doubt trickles into my consciousness. Sometimes heart pounding doubt, in which I go back and revisit what I wrote with a magnifying glass. But that only makes the words bigger.
But it's a small comfort that a guy like Conan has doubts. Yes, he's human, and it's human nature to doubt. But Nicholas Sparks is human. At least I think so. From some of his interviews I've read, he compares himself to Hemingway. Now, I ain't gonna judge, your honor. You can do whatever you want, but I've never liked people who had that mightier than thou attitude. Get over yourself, dude.
You can't say that about Conan. He self deprecates himself on his new show, nightly. He's loyal to his crew. Twelve million of that settlement went to them. And he has an air of quiet confidence, which allows him to be self deprecating because, for the most part, he knows it ain't true.
The second thing I learned was Conan never reads reviews. Someone off camera had asked if he read reviews of his stage show. His personal assistant states they're a waste of time. I hear that a lot. From broadway greats such as Lea Salonga, to great romance writer Nora Roberts, and famed Harry Potter actor Daniel Radcliffe don't read reviews of their work. Hell. Johnny Depp doesn't even watch dailies, which I think are the takes filmed on that day. And I agree. I don't read comments made on my site, nor do I read comments about my writing on other sites, unless they're my friends'.
You hear that? Yes, I'm talking to you select people. Welcome back and see Blacklisted.
Standing in a room of a hundred people, there can be a hundred varying opinions of me. I can't control what they think. I can't change what they think. So why worry about what they think? Everyone has an opinion, just as they do assholes.